From the passport brief, I began to experiment with line drawing onto acetate in order to portray the transparency of my emotions. From this, I found that the way I had used the pen in a disorganised manner does not capture the way I handle my own feelings. Although, from grappling with colour behind the acetate sheets, I found that the use of  sickly green tones craft accurate connotations of the way I deal with disfunction.

From these findings, I took inspiration from Lucian Freud due to his representation of emotional existence; rather than focusing on the physical. So, using oil paint onto primed paper, I painted a portrait of myself in sickly hues of green and yellow; reflecting my struggle towards self-acceptance. The very precise nature of the brush strokes enhances my need for order and perfection, a contributing factor to the sickening colouring of the painting. It is also interesting that in the painting my eyes cannot reach the gaze of the viewer, hence exemplifying my apprehension to connect with others. Also, the fact that the gaze points upwards suggests a sense of searching for an answer from a perhaps celestial force of nature above humankind.

On the next page, I have drawn an erratic pen drawing of my dog in order to portray his excitable behaviour and innocent naivety, of which provides a sense of love and security in my life.